June 2010
I have my own room. <3 Mitchell has his own room in a different city. I feel happy. Kira is going to be living with me now. I wonder how long I’ll be able to handle that… She really annoys me sometimes and I hope that this doesn’t ruin our friendship. Ehhh. She takes forever to get ready. And she always starts talking about things I don’t really care about for a long...
I need motivation.
Like two negative mangnits we push eachother away.
It's over and that's final.
Thanks for reminding me why I wanted to break up in th first place. You do shit to me that I can’t even tell other people because I’m too scared to say it.
I sabotage everything I step into, because I know sooner or later it’ll end.
You know what I realized today?
I just don’t like people…
None of them, I think we can all just disappear because no one is true of heart, no one is honest, no one has pure intentions, no one trusts and people don’t love as much as they should. People suck, and that’s final.
I’ll wait for the day that I find someone…Someone that’s imperfections are perfect, someone that can show me,...
I used to sit there and stare at your hands, and love every scratch, wrinkle and crease. I used to run my hands down your side, your back, and love every curve, every perfect mistake. I used to brush my lips against yours and sigh. I used to laugh at everything you did, everything you said. I used to feel complete when I was by your side, like I had no place better to be placed, like i could stay...
I find too many flaws in everything.
I don't like people
They’re all egotistical.
Everyone talks about themselves, constantly. I did this and I did that I hurt more than you. I don’t do that…. Why does everyone else?
You see, there’s this thing, where I just want to fall in love and do all the falling in love and the happiness at the beginning. But that’s it. I never want to work and move forward with a relationship. I don’t want the fights, the boring nights, I want to be permanently In Love. 24 hours of the day, the seven just to be by myself…
Sigh.
Darling,
You really mean so much to me. I’m afraid and really afraid that I’d hurt you. But I care deeply about you I never want you to leave me arms. Darling I <3 you.
The more time I spend with certian people the more I don’t wantto be with him.
I just wanna hold your hand.
I’m trapped, did you know that? I don’t know how to get out.
What happened to this game
Of pretend?
I wanted to say something, do something. Then I saw you guys together and realized, life is just a game, why not keep playing pretend…
Ugh my friend went on an adventure today. She went on a 9 day journey to new Mexico then Arizona then la an back home. New mexico to meet up with this boy. And I hear things are going good. I wish I could just do that. Just get up and leave for a little. I want an adventure. I dropped her off at the airport this morning and just wanted to hop on a plane and fly away
I listen to your every word, I read every single thing you write, I watch you while you look around, I wonder where you are when you’re not with me. Wondering if you even thought of me
Once today.
I HATE that I LOVE you.
I miss you always.
You asked me what I was thinking About. I was thinking about how everytime I’m around you no matter what just being with you makes me smile and how I wish things were simpiler and how amazing you are how cute. I was thinking man how I want to hold you and never let you go and wish that we were in an alternate universe so we could be together. That’d be nice. But I wouldn’t want...
I want to make a
Post
Secret.
